I went to the cemetery this past weekend. I was in a frantic state as I pulled up to Holy Innocents area of the cemetery. The flowers that have been a landmark of sorts for me to easily scan the landscape and find my daughter, were not there. As I looked for the flowers, I noticed them at the curb. I was panicked. Where is she I thought? In retrospect, what a silly thought, of course she was there. The week prior I had brought a pinwheel and pink flowers, I didn't see those either. I anxiously got out of the car and quickly walked to the area. And then, it became clear... her 'marker' had been put in place of the old flowers. I was so happy and relieved.
Here it is... here she is at her final resting place. I found and replaced the pinwheel and flowers. I placed a small angel there too. I have plans to decorate the site and make a home of sorts for her there.
There is a silent joy and reverence I have seeing the marker in place. It is another bridge crossed. I am proud of her. I love her. I miss her.
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ReplyDeleteNothing I say will ease your pain but I too buried a baby girl 24 1/2 years ago. I have made it a home of sorts for her. You will never ever forget but as one who has done this it does get easier I see your marker and notice how similar it is to Diannes I just noticed your popular posts to the right can feel the pain of those days. The autopsy (I didnt know one was done till I got to the funeral home) the I cant believe it happened to me and the today at the cemetary. The faces of sorrow are always with me and Im sure with you but you are right in saying she is your angel and she will send you signs that she is with you in your heart and always by your side. I get dimes all the time find them when there was none there a second before I believe thats her way of saying I Love you mommmy. Love and Hugs to you and your husband
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